Friends, this photograph symbolizes just how I feel at this point in time. It is a result of me, stupidly perhaps, becoming involved with some of the big issues that confront our world and my valiant but obviously futile attempt via this one-man blog to make a difference.
I have put countless hours of my life into writing posts and comments and doing research during the last eighteen months. I have put up with abuse, insults, contempt, death threats, being blacklisted and banned, flaming, troll attacks... I have anxiously watched my hits and comments rise and fall like the king tides and suffered the corresponding highs and lows. I have argued with some of the biggest idiots the world has ever seen... Worse, I have become a prisoner of my computer.
Along the way, I have been supported by some very nice, genuine, caring people who have mostly reciprocated my support for them. They have kept me going.
However, I must admit that the unexpected conclusion that I have come to is that the problem with our world is not this person or that, or this religion or that, or this country or that, or this economic or political system or that, etc. IT'S US! We are the problem.
The flaws which create a chaotic, conflicted, dysfunctional, sick world lie within each one of us (there are of course deeper flaws in some people than in others). It's our unfortunate nature. It's how we are and nothing that I can say or do will change it. And, unless genetic engineering can modify us, it's how we will always be (at least until we destroy ourselves).
I'm now in the situation of being caught between a rock and a hard place: continuing on with blogging is having a negative, frustrating effect on me but if I close down then I will suffer also because I feel strongly that I should try to do something about the world's madness which can't be changed. Catch 22, eh?
A lot of very good serious bloggers have closed down recently. I understand why. Bashing your head against a brick wall month after month is painful especially if it obviously achieves little or nothing.
As I consider my options (close my blog or find a new direction for it) please bear with me a little longer.